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i'm not stupid.

i'm sick of this. i'm sick of these ideas instilled upon me since i've been small. so heavily engrained into me through years of abuse and bad relationships. i'm not stupid. i'm not worthless. i am not hard to love.

i'm skilled in the things i'm passionate about and only continuing to get better. i'm smart. i had a high gpa in high school and got straight A's in the college i completed. i'm not a fucking idiot! i know what i'm talking about. i'm wise beyond my years and have worthwile things to say. i'm funny! i'm charasmatic and easy to talk to. i'm cooperative and a team player. i am full of love for those who fucking deserve it.

AND! get this: even if i wasn't any of those things, i'd still be worthy of a spot on this earth. i'm worthy of love and i'm worthy of good things.

anyone who thinks otherwise can eat a fucking rotten egg!!

it'll take years to fully recover from the way these people made me feel. and i have every right not to forgive them. that doesn't make me bad.